I almost died last year.
I was a shell of a human being. And I am back.
God has put me through a crucible.
A decompression stage.
At 53 years old, after having gone through the deepest, darkest emotional fall from grace, I stand before you today as a new man to share my story.
May it inspire those of you who are feeling a bit out of alignment to take a step back and reevaluate your mission in life, so you don’t have to go through the same painful process that I went through. 🙏
I had carried the weight of suppressed emotions and childhood trauma for decades.
I kept myself busy working long hours and building multi-million dollar companies while focusing on external material goals because it was too painful to go within.
I thought that if I had a big house, a nice car, and a large bank balance, then I would be enough.
My values were backward.
Money has a tendency to augment your values, and when you’re out of alignment with your values, the money augments the misalignment, and you’ll make decisions from ego.
On the other hand, when you’re in alignment with your values, you’ll make healthy decisions from the neutral energy of self-love—from your heart.
You’ll experience deep gratitude for every dollar received and spent, give thanks to God, and you’ll give more to help more people.
This is why I had to go through what I went through. I was living with an internal conflict and coming from a place of ego.
I was making business decisions based on the end game and the highest dollar amount instead of creating opportunities and working with people aligned with my highest values.
And it took a catastrophic failure and two years of deep depression for me to heal and turn it all around.
In 2018 I launched a marketing company, Nikoiad, to give back to my home country and, more importantly, to empower women.
Why women specifically? As redemption for the mistreatment and heartbreak, I had caused the women in my life due to my lack of self-respect as a result of turning away from my childhood trauma instead of facing it head-on and healing.
My goal was to create a safe working space for a group of women and pay them more than they would ever make on an average Nicaraguan salary.
I wanted to help them change their lives.
My Nikoiad employees, my Nikoiad family, came together through my heart.
While I had good intentions, in the beginning, I let my ego get in the way. I onboarded clients for the money who didn’t completely align with the mission.
I felt internally conflicted as I wavered back and forth between my ego and heart.
At the same time, in 2018/2019, Nicaragua had faced the largest civil unrest in its history and Nikoiad headquarters was located right in the middle of it all.
Internal and external conflict.
A few employees started working from home because it was too dangerous for them to get to the office.
And the catalyst; an employee’s home was hit by gunfire.
So I pulled the plug.
I shut it down and walked away from the whole thing.
I had failed the entire team.
And then I fell into the deepest depression imaginable.
I collapsed, and I couldn’t move for almost two years.
I just laid there.
I laid there in a mental and emotional coma.
I laid there in the darkest fog imaginable as I healed internally.
And then, on November 7, 2020, after a phone call from my son, I stood up.
My son had called to tell me that he forgives me.
He said that after all that has happened, he still loves me.
I got up because of the forgiveness from my son.
And now I have complete and perfect clarity around my purpose and mission in life.
I know exactly why I’m here, and I know exactly what actions to take.
I wake up every morning and give thanks to God for taking me on this journey, for giving me the wisdom to share in humility.
Every day I live in integrity. My actions match my mission.
I’ve enrolled a group of close friends, whom I call the council, to ensure that I stay on track.
And it is from this newfound depth of love in my heart that ZigSwift was born on May 1, 2021.
The family is back together—the core group of employees from Nikoiad have trusted me with their lives and have come back home.
I’m humbled and grateful beyond words to each and every one of them.
My purpose now is to illustrate that companies who live by healthy values grow in healthy ways.
We only serve companies that complement our mission, and we illustrate that our team of people is on purpose in everything we do.
We treat each other and our clients with the utmost respect, we celebrate each other’s wins, and we pray for those who need support.
SEO and marketing is a way for us to connect because you need that for your business, but it goes so much deeper than that.
We’re building relationships.
We work to serve others through the healing power of radical forgiveness, unconditional love, and mutual respect in the spirit of God within each and every one of us.
We believe in passion, positivity, and enthusiasm through integrity, commitment, and respect.
I’m not a self-proclaimed business guru. I am just a hard-working human on the way to integrity to be a truly spiritual man.
My story is no different than anyone else’s.
While my story used to own me, I now own my story.
I’m the writer and director of this thing called life.
See you at the top.
John 15:13 Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.
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